{"id":15694,"date":"2025-06-15T05:47:40","date_gmt":"2025-06-15T05:47:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/?p=15694"},"modified":"2025-06-15T05:58:13","modified_gmt":"2025-06-15T05:58:13","slug":"the-will-to-carry-on","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/?p=15694","title":{"rendered":"The will to carry on"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Se-nserase de-a binelea c\u00e2nd am ie\u0219it din teatru. Am luat-o pe chei, str\u00e2ng\u00e2nd la piept po\u0219eta de lac. M\u0103 temeam s\u0103 nu-mi alunece. De ce-oi fi ales-o tocmai pe asta, \u0219tiind c-am s\u0103 iau metroul? \u0218i-un v\u00e2nticel ar fi reu\u0219it s\u0103 mi-o smulg\u0103 din m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Doi r\u0103t\u0103ci\u021bi, ie\u0219ind din spatele platanilor de\u0219i, m-au f\u0103cut s\u0103 tresar inutil. Doar luminile restaurantelor, fa\u021b\u0103 de care eram \u00eenc\u0103 departe, \u0219i tocurile mele late \u0219i plate mai tremurau \u00een sineala nop\u021bii \u0219i a apei trase la indigo dup\u0103 <\/a>cer. Precum \u00een cer, a\u0219a \u0219i \u00een ape. Nu v\u0103d p\u0103m\u00e2ntul pe care calc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Urcu\u0219ul pe munte m-a l\u0103sat cu o nesiguran\u021b\u0103 a mu\u0219chilor \u0219i genunchilor care n-ar fi rezistat nici celor mai mici tocuri. Chiar \u0219i acum, la distan\u021b\u0103 de \u0219ase zile, calc cu dificultate. Pa\u0219ii dor. Ca \u0219i dorul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cen st\u00e2nga am D\u00e2mbovi\u021ba – mai frumoas\u0103 acum dec\u00e2t ziua, c\u00e2nd adun\u0103 ca fraiera resturile \u201eciviliza\u021biei\u201d; \u00een dreapta, dou\u0103 construc\u021bii noi, de sticl\u0103, cu peluza invadat\u0103 de buruieni, \u00eens\u0103 unele \u00een\u0219el\u0103toare, care lesne ar putea trece drept lavand\u0103. Biblioteca Na\u021bional\u0103 a Rom\u00e2niei e la doar doi pa\u0219i mai \u00een fa\u021b\u0103. Ea n-are buruieni, n-are voie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Cheiul, pe partea asta pe care merg, e invadat de buruieni \u00eenalte – graminee, ca s\u0103 le domesticim pu\u021bintel, de\u0219i nu merit\u0103. Ni\u0219te s\u0103lbatice. Au r\u0103d\u0103cini subterane ca o\u021belul. Greu s\u0103 scapi de ele. \u021a\u0103ranca de sf\u00e2r\u0219it de s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 care sunt \u0219tie asta cel mai bine. O \u0219tie cu palmele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Merg \u00een continuare pe chei, dar intru \u00eentr-o zon\u0103 mai sigur\u0103. E \u201dcalmul\u201d dat de forfota restaurantelor \u0219i a teilor care te sf\u00e2\u0219ie cu mirosul lor ca un dor nevindecat. Citisem pe ni\u0219te trepte din zona Unirii \u0219i mi-a r\u0103mas \u00een cap: Oamenii se fac dor…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

De fix o lun\u0103, mi s-a mai ad\u0103ugat un dor. M\u0103 \u00eentorceam de la Br\u0103ila \u0219i \u0219tiam c\u0103 va fi singura \u0219i ultima \u00eentoarcere c\u00e2nd ea… c\u00e2nd ea mai e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Noaptea, nu doar pisicile sunt la fel, ci \u0219i restaurantele. Trec pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 ele, dar teii nu se las\u0103 (\u0219tiu asta de mic\u0103, m-a crescut un tei din fa\u021ba casei), sunt mai pregnan\u021bi dec\u00e2t carnea fript\u0103 pe gr\u0103tar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Una dintre ultimele piese c\u00e2ntate de copiii din corul \u201eMaestra\u201d, la a c\u0103ror reprezenta\u021bie tocmai asistasem, a fost \u201eThe show must go on\u201d a forma\u021biei Queen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0103 apropii de f\u00e2nt\u00e2nile arteziene din Unirii, aceea\u0219i melodie, \u201eThe show must go on\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0103 opresc c\u00e2teva clipe, fac poza de mai jos, apa \u021b\u00e2\u0219ne\u0219te \u00een acorduri luminoase, spectacolul trebuie s\u0103 continue, de\u0219i se creeaz\u0103 spa\u021bii goale, what are we living for?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pentru basmele care nu vor muri niciodat\u0103, I have to find the will to carry on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Se-nserase de-a binelea c\u00e2nd am ie\u0219it din teatru. Am luat-o pe chei, str\u00e2ng\u00e2nd la piept po\u0219eta de lac. M\u0103 temeam s\u0103 nu-mi alunece. De ce-oi fi ales-o tocmai pe asta, \u0219tiind c-am s\u0103 iau...<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15694","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-personal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15694","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15694"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15694\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15701,"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15694\/revisions\/15701"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15694"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15694"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.dumitra.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15694"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}